So, I'm full term now which makes me so happy! I can't wait to meet my little girl and have her be a part of our family. But, I am also so nervous on so many levels! This pregnancy has been hard, maybe even harder than it was with Joshua. We moved across the country, I was sick for so long, no friends, Kevin is gone a lot, etc. I have been ready for baby girl to make her entrance since about 8 weeks. Like I've said before, I'm just not good at being pregnant.
My delivery with Joshua was pretty easy. From the time my water broke to birth was only 4 hours. I got my epidural as soon as I walked in the hospital and I was good to go. I have been looking forward to another easy delivery but unfortunately it looks as though that is not the case. Baby girl is stubborn and won't turn herself around. On Monday, we schedule my appointment to go to the hospital to see if they can move her. If not, we plan a c-section. If she goes into distress during the ECV, I have an emergency c-section that day. If they do get her to flip, I go home and wait for labor. Two out of my three options are ending in a c-section which has me freaked out!
I have been stressing probably 80% of my days about having a c-section. I don't do well with a hangnail, how in the world am I going to survive someone cutting open my stomach? I am basically a wreck. Now, I don't want her to come out at all because I'm scared of the whole process, recovery, what it is going to do to my body. Ugggg. Please baby girl, turn around! Any positive c-section stories, send my way!
Like everyone I know with 2 kids, I am sad for the adjustment for Joshua. I know eventually it will be great, but right now I am his world. We spend every second together and that is about to change. He is so perfect for our family and I love him to pieces. I don't want bringing a new member into our family to be harder than it has to... another reason I am anti c-section.
As you can see, I am a little bit emotional right now. I have so many thoughts, feelings, and nervousness constantly circulating my brain as we are about to expand our wonderful family to four.